Friday, November 14, 2008
high school musical 3: senior year was just a joy to watch... the music, dances and all. thanks sab for the treat and for accompanying me to watch it even though you've already sat thru it once. =) haha. dinner at long johns with sab, chels and baya was equally hilarious... the deafness of chelsea above everything else. but what did it for me the entire night was the 3 hour convo at our new "LEPAK CORNER!" despite mats smoking (i tell you... my life is shortened by 20 years. for goodness sake mats, take your smoking and confine it to your house), we entertained ourselves with reminiscing our band days, "sharing stuff about people" and relaxing in the breeze. such a lame euphemism. IT WOULD SERIOUSLY HAVE BEEN BETTER IF THE MATS WEREN'T SMOKING!!! and though we might have lost them, i'm still refraining from pushing the blame to miss kiampak or anyone else. sometimes, i wonder whether we were in our own world, that we didn't even know we were drifting. as much as i want the times to halt such that there was a rewind button, i know that will never happen. it's too late, we know it... and all we can do is sit back and gasp as she steals them away. making her out to be such a witch doesn't mean everything will be fine, but it does reinforce our idea that she is what she is. dang... i'm getting all upset here. upset over how miserable life has become. how relationships come and go. how one minute we're smiling and enjoying each other's presence; and another we can be so cold and distant. memories will only fade. i know it will but i can't do anything to stop it. what is within my power is the ability to cherish what i have now and hold on tight to it. oh well, at least 5 years down the road, i know we'll still be friends and that will still put that smile on my face. the same smile i had on tonight. the similar genuine smile... thanks for allowing me to be myself. no facade. no hatred or disdain. nothing. and even though we're still contemplating life without them, i suggest we just keep our arms open to them (if she eventually pisses them off which i wish she will). i want this night etched in my memory for years to come. and don't worry, you're all coming to my place for my mum's cereal prawns, mee siam, ayam buah keluah amongst other yummilicious delicacies. i'll remind my mother. =) can't wait to lepak again.  in any case, to you: i'm going to take a step back cos i'm exhausted. as much as i want to shake you out of your misery, it's really up to you. =) God bless you! no tensions whatsoever, i want the best for you. you can always find me when you deem fit ya? time to move on in life... nagoya, okinawa, hokaiddo, tokyo at 24. that will be my motivating factor. update more once the lit paper finishes. ciao. manddaw
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