Saturday, October 31, 2009

manddaw

Thursday, October 29, 2009

a lethargic saturday morning i say this is. i had one horrible migrane attack last night. as i was telling my parents, it must be due to exhaustion and fatigue. the rounds around mowbray somehow made me tire out. coupled with the lack of water throughout the day. was suffering from a terrible migrane attack from afternoon till night. couldn't do anything except moan and groan. everything i did was a pure torture. didn't even go for my hair treatment cos every move i made sent waves of sheer agony to the brain. all i could do was lie down and rest. started feeling nauseous halfway thru the day too. so i must really thank conrad for allowing me to rest comfortably at his place and thanks brother... for sending me home even though you live in freaking bukit timah. no amount of thank yous will be enough.

right now, i'm just relaxing at home. no plans as yet although i might be going down to tk for alumni band practice. have to listen to my bro and rest at home for tmr's cog. really am feeling better right now. no headache, no nausea. =) thank God for healing me and making me well again.

manddaw

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

HELLO ALL! feels nice being back in singapore. haha. brisbane was good... movie world, sea world, shopping at harbour town and good food. but being away too long without my closest friends will be weird. so yea, i'm back in action. touched down at changi airport at around 8.45pm, spent an hour at duty free shopping for perfume and rushed home to unpack all the food stuff, clothes and all. then i actually rushed back to camp immediately to sleep in cos of the mowbray rehearsal today. what a rush?!

today's rehearsal wasn't too bad. thought i would lose touch with playing and marching but it actually turned out not too bad. so all we need to do now is confirm the gimmicks, polish up our music, drills and overall outlook and this sunday's COG will be a blast. =) kinda looking forward to doing COG MAIN since the last one in may. so it's like FINALLY we get a chance after doing support so many times. hate doing support.

didn't do much today after mowbray. rested till 3pm before coming back home. but the positive peer influence by songhua made me get out of the house almost immediately to run around bedok reservoir. yea, i actually forced myself to run. haha. did 10km around the reservoir which was good. i feel totally exhausted right now but the aches haven't settled in just yet. and there's a hike at bukit timah hill tmr with band b. so i need to get all the rest i need if i plan to go up. for now, i'm just going to get a good rest and sleep early. good night.

chelsea recommended this video which i felt was rather nice. haha. enjoy. =)

manddaw

Friday, October 23, 2009

like i said in the previous post, the past few days have been a horrid holiday. consider going out with a whiny, calculative, annoying woman that counts every single cent. wouldn't the holiday be ruined instantly? i think it would. damnnit, my blood boils the moment i think how she actually managed to tell her husband, "you're paying for lunch again? you already paid for dinner yesterday." YOU STINGY CALCULATIVE WOMAN. piece of crap. so filthy rich already, yet you calculate till you must divide portions to cents. i give up.

had a heart-to-heart talk with my mother over many things. like choosing the right kind of friends to have, ones that will stick with you through out, that won't be so anal over everything. talking about how our brisbane holiday turned out quite horrid, although it gave us a common topic to grumble about. and thankfully, she seems to have given me a larger amount of freedom to choose my own friends, the right ones to hang out with. =) and fortunately for me, she's fine with songhua and conrad. so that's good! haha. still waiting for our peranakan dinner at my place. will need to go shopping for the groceries when the time comes.

in any case, i didn't manage to get a long things as yet. went to harbour town off brisbane to do some long-awaited shopping. fortunately, today was a rather easy-going day. not much temper was flared. bought four cool tees, a new balance running shoe, my damn OBIANG/CHEEKOPEK/WILL CHUCK INTO THE CUPBOARD AND NEVER WEAR IT AGAIN EVER prints shirt for wilson's 21st birthday. like so hard to find can? walk all over harbour town but there were so little prints shirt. in the end, i had to settle for one of those cheekopek kind. i am so going to kill wilson lim. after his bday, i'm never gg to wear it again. haha. and i still can't find a cheap reef slippers for conn or everlast singlet for songhua. practically no where to be found. and thanks to joey, i now own my first pair of sturdy shades. my first one which i bought with my cousin jeremy in malacca broke. then, i share my dad's rayban ones till he thinks i'm too vain and doesn't find a need for me to own one... so he takes it back. then i have the clip on shades to my spectacles which doesn't really block out sunlight. and yes, today i get my own. although i still think i will kope my dad's raybans cos it looks good on me. narcisstic much?

and i'm such a sucker for perfume. walked into so many shops, try all the nice mens' perfume, but in the end, still haven't bought any. and there's like 4 bottles lying in my cupboard which i rotate. but i still want more. sigh. i want the eternity for men, armani code and more. arrrggghhh. i shall see. still time at the airport or something tmr.

and there's church, going to joey's church tmr in the evening. kinda nervous but hopefully, i'll meet some really nice people there. looking forward to going back to singapore.

received news that uncle paul passed away. up till now, the news has been occupying my whole mind. it's a very tragic piece of news to receive whilst on holiday, but if God has better plans for uncle paul... then all we can do is to trust Him in His plans. i'm saddened by uncle paul's passing but i'm glad that he no longer has to suffer all the tubes into his body, all the morphine, dormicum and so many purges. he can finally rest in peace with the Lord. just hope aunt lily is holding up well. i'm going to miss having the two of them around... but at least now, aunt lily can get a good rest she rightfully deserves, for having taken such devoted care of uncle paul whilst he was alive. she's been a faithful partner and i thank God for such a rolemodel in my life. if anything, there was a purpose in their lives and the process of moving on now begins. pray that the whole family will be strengthed in this time of grievance and that they learn to find strength in the Lord Jesus. amen.

time to rest and start packing for the trip back to singapore. going to miss the cool brisbane weather. sigh, farewell spring. till the following year or even later, it's back to humid, hot singapore.

manddaw

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

here i am in brisbane, blogging for the first time. the internet here is a little laggy and the comp slightly slow in loading, but as long as i'm able to blog and msn and facebook, it will suffice. plane ride on SQ235 was good, save for the noisy kids on board. thankfully, there was entertainment on board the plane. watched ice age and listened to all the latest music on board. david cook, chris daughtry, jordin sparks, kelly clarkson etc... blocked out most of the screaming, crying. haha, and i intoxicated myself to fall asleep by drinking white wine through out. helped a bit though it made my throat kinda dry towards the end of the flight.

past few days have been literally an "emotional rollercoaster ride" after going thru so much. first things first, the adults around me (my mum included) suck at taking pictures. so dun expect too much nice pictures unless it's taken by me. sickening. don't know how to zoom, turn the flash off, set timer. nothing... complain and complain only. arrrggghhh. wanted to take pictures with flash and batman but well, can't even do that properly. at least i managed to take some scenic pictures of the burleigh beach at gold coast just now. and i had awesome fish and chips at burleigh beach (gold coast) just now. had three types of fish... cod, dory and barracuda. satisfied with the meal and would be even better if everything went well. =X

tomorrow's another day at seaworld. don't really know what to expect but i'm in no mood or condition to get soaking wet with all the rides. looking forward to whatever dry rollercoasters though. and some time away from the others. i got totally annoyed when she kept whining... "can we not go to mt. tambourine? why so far? are we there yet? my back pain. if have to wait so long for the fish and chips, i don't want to buy. i'm buying for joey and daisy." SPARE ME PLEASE!!! goodness me. i don't want to be mean or anything, but being pampered doesn't mean that everyone has to accomodate your whims and fancies. so yea, period. i'm going to enjoy whatever is left of my holiday. it's fine, save for certain irksome moments. yea, which holiday doesn't?

haven't really spent money on this trip yet. still seeing what nice stuff is there to buy. saw this really nice shirt just now, but sigh... didn't get it in the end due to the lack of time. should have grabbed it and go. bad habit of thinking, thinking... "shld i get it", "but then hor, later not enough money how?" and eventually, i don't buy! haha. yea, annoying i know. i shall find some nice shirts for myself soon. meanwhile, i'm really looking forward to being back in singapore. weird i know... which idiot wants to be back in singapore when he's on a holiday. but well, the company isn't right. and when that happens, i don't enjoy myself. i can't focus on relaxing when i have to deal with a whiny woman and my mum (i totally understand cos she needs my help). i'm waiting for my holiday with songhua and conrad (and timothy if that crap wants to go)

so yea, 4 more days before i'm back in singapore. and well, next sunday is COG already. can't really enjoy too cos i keep thinking of the dominoes. i wonder how is it? and whether it will succeed. i really want to do it, but both songhua and conrad knows that it most likely can't... sigh, given that i'm working with non-tk band people. i'm getting my hopes too high i feel... thinking that i can trust band b and the trainees to carry out a feat seemingly impossible. yea, i'll just work with them when i return to singapore and see how it goes. if by the second mowbray rehearsal and they still can't, i either scrape the whole thing or i insist on extra practice. BAH, LIFE SUCKS!

right now, i'm missing my bed... my brother, father, sister and family... and songhua and conrad. the bad company here makes me wish i was with better ones. a holiday with my own relatives/family/friends would be tons better than having to endure NONSENSE SHIT! haha. if only singapore's weather being as cool as aussie now. and druu, i wish you were here with me. really... or rather, i wish my mum and i went to melbourne instead. not that brisbane isn't nice... but well, i wanna see my BEST FRIEND RIGHT NOW! =) can't wait to see you in january druu.

alright, before i start being a total bitch again... i need to go rest. my nose has bled since day 1. my lips crack like crazy and i'm always feeling dehydated despite drinking water. and what's with australia and water coolers? there seems to be like only one water cooler in 100 miles. annoying. and i don't know whether water is safe to drink from the tap. can someone enlighten me? ok, good night.

manddaw

Sunday, October 18, 2009

it's today. flying off in about 12 hours time. will have to finish packing my stuff... toiletries, clothes, cash, visas, ipod, ipod charger, camera, battery charger and not forgetting the passports. sigh, so many things to take charge of now since my mum wants me to handle my own stuff. =) the responsibilities that come with being an adult now. oh well. at least i settled most of my stuff before leaving singapore.

will need to meet up with songhua and conrad later if possible to pass them something. haha, a whole week away from work is good and at the same time, absence will make the heart grow fonder. will cherish them instead of taking them forgranted. reflections... "who is that guy i see, staring straight back at me." if anyone of you reads this, please msg me ya?

finally went down to tk to collect the glockenspiel from mr lawrence siao. really owe him a huge favour for lending saf bands the marching bells. and i must say, it was bittersweet to walk into the gates of tk after almost 4 years. at least there's a familiar face still around after all these years. =) which reminds me... tk band will be having her annual in-concert at the esplanade concert hall this year. those who are interested, please tell me. tickets are priced at $15 or $20. standard esplanade prices. the concert falls on thr 29th of november and commences at 7.30pm.

yesterday was just awesome. went out with nurb and sabby for karaoke at katong. three hours of heartfelt songs, belted out one after the other, melodramatically. nurbaya dancing to "nobody but you", sabrina screaming her lungs out for "if i aint' got you" and laughing to the unknown lyrics of "first love". i had the time of my life last night with the two ladies. =) can't wait for the next session in december. thank you baya for the entertainment and sablee for the awesome "prayer" duet.

rushed home only to leave the house minutes later for the stayover at the riverboat with daryl. had a nice time chatting with him over work, life and everything under the moon. daryl saw, stop vandalising my pictures please. i'll sue you i tell you. and hurry up with the promotions while i'm available to do the photoshoot. =) looking forward to the $10 meals and the various promotions that santa fe is coming up with. truly the brainchild of daryl saw cheng lock, although he can be annoying when he edits your picture beyond imagination for the sake of advertisement.

anyway, i have to get down to packing. but i'll be back soon. just want to wish everyone a good week ahead. going to miss the few of you. you know who you are. take care and keep healthy and cheerful k? agape.

manddaw

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Happy 20th Birthday Wysen Kwek Wei Sheng and Chelsea Ng Rui Ying!

manddaw

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

my back is still aching although, thank God, the pain has subsided. yea, that gnawing pain still lingers from the shoulders down to the spine. at least tomorrow, i hope after the massage, the pain will be slightly better or totally gone. i don't want to go to australia suffering from a backache.

today's life run was good. finally got a chance to run, releasing all the pent-up energy and the chance to work the growing fats. considering this is the third time i'm running in months (first being on my own in camp, second with jacob tan for a total of 12 rounds around the whitehouse), i'm looking forward to more runs. LIKE 10X more. it's about a month left to IPPT and i need to start training for all the stations, PULL-UPS especially.

and i'm glad i finally got started on designing the freaking noticeboard for ceremonial band b. took down all the notices with peiling, maswan and shaoming. and still deciding what else to add up. will continue tomorrow when i go back to camp. although it will be sports and games tomorrow afternoon. =) yay, SPORTS & GAMES! time to go running again.

just wanted to congratulate chan songhua on getting a merit for his grade 6 trombone practical exam. don't be disappointed already. you tried your best and besides, we're proud of you. =) time to celebrate ya? rmb to get all the MFM vouchers. maybe friday night or something before i go missing for a week. cheers!

manddaw

Saturday, October 10, 2009

in times of sadness or lingering dissentment, all we need to do is turn to the Lord. amen.

When I feel like I can't go on
You deliver me
When the road is winding and way too long
You deliver me
You deliver me

thank you Lord, for your deliverance. <3

manddaw

Friday, October 09, 2009

when i've forgotten how to be happy, something like this perks me up. =) maybe something like this on a dreary day will make me smile.

manddaw

Thursday, October 08, 2009

arrrgghh, it's the weather again. the gloomy and unforgiving weather that's making me all annoyed and flustered. and there's band drills tmr. sigh, the thought of it just shatters whatever little joy there is inside of me. suddenly, everything seems so horrid. and that terrible feeling of "not fitting in" comes like an avalanche, blanketing all ounce of hope there is. i'm feeling so screwed up right now. don't even know what i should do in the days ahead. isolate myself and mope for now.

fortunately for the series of unfortunate events, today's bak kut teh was piping hot and very nice. somehow made the monotony of today more bearable. took afternoon off to get away from the mundane walls of the office and the confines of the white house. it's stifling. sometimes i keep seeing people i don't want to see, and the people whom i'm looking forward to meet just seem non-existent. sigh.

i need to get away from it all. a well-deserved holiday please? double sigh.

manddaw

Monday, October 05, 2009

it has been a long time since the group of us actually hung out together. especially with all the different deployments band a, b and c commit ourselves to, it gets hard to meet up even for a meal. so yesterday's hangover at ronald's was awesome to the max. haven't seen ronald, kahsiong, nelson, nizam in ages. ok, that was an exaggeration. but yea, it has been a "hi guys, bye guys" kind of thing for the past few weeks.

had dinner with my brothers first at pizza hut. =) will always enjoy such dinners given the numerous things we get to talk about sometimes. and of course, the company is good. haha. then rushed down to ronald's place with timothy to join the rest of the group there. nelson, kahsiong, nizam, reuben and ronald. started off with wii's raving rabbids. then moved on to mahjong till almost 3am. and well, morning was sleep-in till noon before ordering canadian pizza and more mahjong till 5. love the batchies.



tim taupoking kahsiong



and vice versa...



ronnie & i



batch 79's clique

manddaw

Saturday, October 03, 2009

don't be a jerk... i hate it. i have had enough. now shut your trap up and get on with your life. i don't need more stress to be added on to my life.

stupid emo shit.

manddaw

Friday, October 02, 2009

for the love of the movie, enjoy...

manddaw

Thursday, October 01, 2009

Happy Children's Day Khairul Nizam! <3

manddaw