Saturday, May 05, 2007
the outing with a201 would have been great if i didn't lose my mp3 player. and it cost me $400. i'm freaking careless i must say to have dropped my zen vision in the cinema. and i was praying that some good soul will find it and return it to the counter, but no...it has been 24 hours and my mp3 player is still lost. i just feel like screaming and shouting and venting my anger... but to whom? no one deserves it except me. no one will understand how i feel... the feeling of losing something so precious as an mp3 player. no one. sigh. i'm praying fervently that God will make miracles happen. band, as usual, is takin up majority of my time in school. i haven't even studied for the week. feeling so upset with myself, my procastination habit & habit of loosing stuff (expensive one at that) like go and die lah james tan... why is it that you loose all your stuff. get a life you idiot! no one can take care of your stuff for you. i have to reiterate my point... my week sucked. as for the exchange between ajc, pjc, yjc, cjc & mjc... i screwed up my solo as usual. when will i get anything right? i don't need people to tell me i'm lousy cos i know that full well. i'm just a useless bass clarinetist. sometimes i wonder how miss sia can actually use me? oh well... have to thank her somehow. my mother had to call me and scream at me for going for band before 7 and going back home late at 11 plus. i'm still at my cousin's place (gengen & chris) using their net. that's how pathetic my life is. my journey is never easy. i get scolded all the time. =( oh well... i hope to live thru this horrible week... hoping next week will be much better and that we will get that Gold or Gold with honours. committing it all to the Lord. thanks to zukai for his help in going down to GV tampines to hep me find my mp3 player, though it was a futile attempt. pierre, janice, yongwen, sally, hazel, charmaine etc for their words of encouragement. shuuji & anisa for trying to cheer me up. and andrew, for making the trunk call all the way from australia just to hear me mourn. and thank you kor for coming down to mj to hear me even though i'm an embarrassment to you. oh well, time to go back home and rest. the meeting with shuuji, sally, zukai & anisa was fine. enjoyed myself. =) thank God for his blessings. amen. manddaw
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